this is going to be a random post again.
be careful.cause u might not understand at ALL.
(:
rotting at home these few days.
did the rest of my homework and stuffs.
was kinda rushing.
but cant concentrate at all.
omg.wanted to go to the library.but.cant wake up so early.






and something's been bothering me lately.
i jux cant understand.
he is everything i could think of.
he wasn't wad i think he is.
he surprises me everytime.
but there's something i dont understand.
theres so many questions in my mind.and i duno why.
its been bothering me lately.everyday i think of him.
he is rite ther in front of me.but i cant reach him at all.
i m onli someone who consoles him wen he is sad.
i m onli someone who cheers him up wen thers a prob.
i m onli someone he noes.
the one he will find wen he is feeling down.
the one who is onli his fren.
a nobody to him.


i sound so pessimist.
but yeah.wad can i do?

my life sucks totally.seriously fucked up.

daddy forcing me to study hard.
mummy forcing me to get good results.
sis wans me to go her school.
mr chew wans me to blow dizi better.
my piano teacher wans me to work harder.
my frens scores better den me.

i m having so much pressure.i wish to deny it.but hell.yeah.its true.
and my baby sis is driving me crazy every minute.



i cant study well.
i cant have a nice handwriting.
i cant concentrate wen i m studying.
i cant pierce my ears.
i cant go out late at night.
i cant have loads of money.
i cant have STRAIGHT hair.
i cant sing.



LO`L.
this have been such a random post.even i cant understand wen i re-read it.

sorry ppl.
didnt blog for days.
part of it was bcos i didnt wan to blog.
part of it was bcos the internet server was not working.
well.these past days sucked.
practically.

i cant upload the pics for my trip to hua lian.
cause the pics are in my dad's laptop.and he's not back yet.
he told me tt he would be bac after the 10th of january.
which means.i cant upload anything as yet.



well.co sucks the most.
everyday mr chew comes.and all he does is scold us.nag us.saying mean things about us.
he doesnt care about wad ppl will think.plus.we are not tt old to think like him.
he say tt he say those mean things to us is bcos he wan us to work harder.
and all he nags is about those who nv come.den why shud those who came be hearing all those crap?if they wan all of us to come.den why not jux call them up and ask them why they nv go for co?why must he nagging to US.wen its not US whose not there.
and he is reprimanding almost every group.mainly the woodwind group barhhs.
all he does everyday is call us to blow to the correct pitch or wadever shit.


during thursday's practice.he scolded me bcos i didnt get to blow on time.
SO?
i mean.i will change rite?den he ask me to blow.again.and again i didnt get in on time.den he started to scold me.say tt we dizi's are the worst in the group.i was like so damn mad.screw him.
dun nid like tt humiliate me in front of so many ppl rite?so i was like.keep quiet for the rest of the time.

he keeps boasting tt eh got so many skl's waiting for him to go teach them.and he was thinking tt he shud not have come to beatty to teach us.he says tt we are the worst of the skl's he teach.does he have to be so hurtful?he keeps saying tt other skl's are so gd.tt we are not being able to be compared wif them.saying we are so bad and all those shit.*ahhhhhhhhhhh*

den after tt.at night.wen bac to skl again.cause got to go for maris stella co concert.
wen ther.the concert was nice.espeacially the drums.i LOVE them.except the part of mr chew.
he says tt maris stella is aso one of the worse skl's.but better den us.he says tt within a few months.they managed to practice so many songs.SO?wads the big deal?dun nid boast to us rite?
he told us tt.dun nid to be jealous.if we work hard aso can have concert.he tells us tt maris stella is not gd.den why can they have a concert?the words he say are bullshit.not gd still can have concert.yeah rite.


they have got alot of solos.nice.but the drums are still the best.
during the concert.me and ziyun was like keep looking at the performers.LOL.
actually can sit in front de lorhhs.duno who call us to sit behind.say tt sound travels to the behind.as if.

after the concert.mr chew called esmond.and asked wad we felt.esmond told him tt we felt guilty.zzz.we didnt even say tt.
after tt the bus took us bac to skl at around 10 plus.and me and ziyun wen home by taking bus.



the next day.mr chew came and speaks to us for 1 whole hour.all those things about us working harder and about attendance.after around an hour.he told us to practice.wen leng said tt he already spoke more den an hour.LOl.
aniwae.we practiced.and mr chew didnt scold us for the first time in practice.and all of us is in a good mood.yeahhs.felt better after tt.

wen home.and rot.did the rest of the holiday homework.cant even go out.
night wen wif mum to turf city.cause she wan to buy something.and ask me go wif her cause i can take things for her.zzz.reach ther.i ask her buy cocktail for me.LOl.reached home at around 10 plus barhhs.excercised and had a midnight talk wif yuhui.after tt bathe and wen to slp.

phew.finally blogged finish.my hands are aching.lol.

P.S . this is a very random post.as u can c.all the things are typed in diff. places.so u may find it hard to read.sorry.my bad.in a sucky mood now.




i hate my life right now.
this freaking minute.
every thing's wrong.
why is this happening to me?
screw it.

LOL..
bac from taiwan for like...3 days.
haven reallie blogged.
was fun fun fun.
will blog about the trips to hua lian.


changed blog skin.loved it(:
will blog soon.
was drained out these few days.
yeahhs.cya guys.

WOOOO~
todaes fun man.
wen out wif my erhhs.taiwan fren.
so fun man.



we met at xi men ding.at 10 am.LOL
den.wen to eat breakfast
den wen to walkwalk.
took neos.
bought sweets.and blahs..


den wen to another place.
blah.took neos AGAIN.
den wen to look at hats.yu han wan buy.den i wen to look for nice stuffs.
LOL
look.den wen bac to our primary skl.
wen to play ther.quite windy seh.
damn cold man.
den yu han took away my sweater.zzz
i was freezing cold man
play for a while lerh.den wen home
LOL.


wen home suddenly found so many ppl in the house.
cause my 2nd aunt de son aso came.
lol.he 22 years old still same height as my jie jie.
LOL
den.eat dinner lerh.all wen home.


byebye.watch tv.